Losing Someone I loved

Starting with this photo, as you can see the man who holding me is my father.

Only God knows how much i love this man. He's my hero my whole life who always caring me even i have a bad days he always cheering me up and made my day better so many memories that we spend together like father like daughter i would say he is the best daddy in the world. when i was a child we always go for a walk wherever it is even if only using a motorbike he always makes something that can make me happy and he's very good at cooking of course he always makes my favorite food whatever i want..

So when i want to enter the high school, i want to study in Manado where it's in another city and that created many conflicts between me and my dad which is my dad can't leave me because our relationship is very close and he love me very much that's why he's scared that maybe something happen to me when i school in Manado. Day by day, my dad allowed me to go to school in Manado it was a very difficult decision for him but he said because he loved me he allowed me to school in there and i don't know it's my own folly to go to school in there because i don't have much time with my dad that i just realized now. so when i finished my high school education in Manado and wanted to enter the college and my dad was sick. i don't know anything because my mom hid it if my dad fell in the bathroom so when my dad was in the hospital he personally called me and said that he fell and is being treated in the hospital now that makes me scared because my dad had a heart disease and i don't know what should i do beside pray to God to provide healing to my dad and God answer my prayer i'm so greatful and blessed that day because my dad was able to get back home. and we passed the day as usual.. And that day came when i had applied to study abroad which was in America, my dad ill and the doctor said he had complication heart diease, kidney and diabetes so my dad was hospitalized for almost a month and it made me cancel all my plans to study in America and made me think a lot, i kept crying and didn't know what to do because my dad 's condition was very bad. at that time i learned to calm down and take time to pray that's all i can do many church fellows who came prayed for my dad almost everyday they came. so day after day my dad's condition got worse and my dad could not move much only me and my mom take care of him. i cry every day and i sit next to my dad take the bible and pray i ask miracles to God so that my dad can recover but God said differently, my dad's condition got worse and he could not speak anymore and where my birthday is near June 27 and 4 days before i told my dad, dad can you wait until my birthday? and he just nodded his head but in my heart i knew he could not wait until my birhday. so when i was taking a shower i prayed to God in my heart, i surrendered my dad's entire life to God because he was in pain and he was no longer able. i believe in miracles but my dad has suffered a lot and i can't stand to see that so i say to God i will be very greatful and thankful for everything that God gave to me. Miracles that what i want now but behind it all i leave it all to God i only pray the best for my dad so on the 26th at 3am my dad passed away, someone i love very much in this world who really cares and loves me has gone forever. it made me broken, but there was God in me i knew it was God's plan and it was good whatever God does now is for good and God will not leave me alone. God provides a future for me even though it's just me and my mom God is always with us and i feel his presence, his presence in my life today. so anyone who loses someone you love very much don't think that God doens't care, it's all God's plan and it's all good that God never leaves you walking alone. He has a beautiful future for you. 

That's what i learned from losing someone i love. I hope this inspire you :)